Monday, September 10, 2012

Here's to New Beginnings

Well. I've had this post on my heart for the past month. I've been putting it off for "when I had time to sit down and focus". Yeah. That hasn't happened in a long time. Better late than never, I suppose, right?

My sophomore year of high school, I was home-schooled. I loved it. It was a time of healing and growing in God. But this summer, God really spoke to me. I felt a nudge I really didn't want to respond to. But there it was. And again. And again. Public school. *gasp* From pre-school to 9th grade, I was enrolled in a small private school in a tiny town. Twelve years. 40 kids in the entire high school. Twelve in my class. I've been sheltered my entire life. Public school has been twisted into this evil movie-like picture in my mind. And now this is where God wants me to go? What? Crazy, I know. Both of my parents were transferred their junior years in high school. They swore they would never do that to their kids. God does have a funny sense of humor, ya know.

So that was about two months ago that that decision was made. About a month ago I registered at the high school our new neighborhood is zoned to. There were a few bumps in the road that I had to adjust to with that process, but God carried (and is still carrying) me through it.

Fast forward two weeks ago to this day. It's 6:30 AM. And I'm freaking out. I'm about to get into my car to drive myself to my first day of public school. I hug Daddy an extra time and get into Shiloh (my beloved Toyota Corolla) and turn up my "Jesus" playlist. I pray the whole 20 minutes there. God has given me the impression that this is my first step into the mission field, so I know I'm at this school for a reason, His Divine reason. So I'm praying He will reveal that to me. There it is. A giant Colosseum-looking high school. I pull into my assigned parking spot 464. I shut my car off and stare at the building. What am I doing here? What business do I have acting like I can just walk into a public school like any other kid? Breathe, Rebekah. God wants you here. You know that. All racing through my head as I walk down the huge hallways. Kind of panicking. Okay, really panicking.

At 2:30 that afternoon, a mass text went out to all of my friends and family that were praying for me -- I survived!


Honestly. Public schools get such a bad rap. Yes, the system is flawed, like every other system in the world. The people have been so nice and understanding and sweet. Most kids are welcoming and kind. The counselors are dolls. God really set up my path before me.


But at the end of that first day, I was disappointed. I really couldn't put my finger on it until I started talking to Daddy, and it all gushed out. I had this silly idea that because I was where God wanted me, everything was going to be perfect. Teachers would love me, I'd have 50 friends the first day, the work would be a breeze. Boy, how wrong I was. That feeling of not belonging linked right back to my days of depression. And having the feeling of depression again scared me right to tears. I promised myself I would never go back to that place. By Wednesday night, I was straight up craving church. My sweet friends and mentors. My worship time. My hilarious youth pastor. All so therapeutic and rejuvenating.

Two weeks of school have passed. I've been so overwhelmed. I've cried so many times. But after spending sweet time with my Jesus last night, I am again at peace. I awoke refreshed and willing and bold. Feeling like He's not with me is just that. A feeling. He is always with me, walking with me, guiding me. And I am forever grateful.

So, here's to new beginnings. I'd love to hear about yours as well. Thanks for letting me share mine.

Rebekah



Friday, August 10, 2012

Stop -- Button Time!

Forever Unique


I made my very own button like a big girl! Not without help from Ellison Lane! She has so many great tutorials for the blog world and quilting and I happen to adore her. I learned how to make a button here and how to create a blog button with html here! So grateful for your help Ellison! So grab a button if you feel the urge to. :)

I've got some awesome posts just waiting to be edited one last time and published that I can NOT wait for y'all to read!

Rebekah

Monday, July 23, 2012

Extreme Case of Absence

My blog is suffering from an extreme lack of attendance this month and I am so sorry!

I left for Camp Eagle (post is being written for that too!) the second week of July before I had the chance to write and queue some posts. I was gone all week, then the next week I volunteered for a week-long VBS (vacation Bible school -- during the mornings of the week, kids in grades K-5 come to my church and we learn Bible stories and do missions crafts and learn tons of fun songs! Most of which are still stuck in my head. About 70 kiddos gave their lives to Christ this week! Praise God!) During the afternoons after VBS, I've been PACKING! That's right. Packing up my house to move. Yesterday we loaded almost everything into the U-Haul and my parents just left to sign the closing papers! We don't close on our new home until tomorrow or Wednesday, so my awesome sister and brother-in-law are letting us crash at their house while we're in limbo.

Once we get all moved in, I plan on going on a major DIY rampage. Glittering everything, decorating my room (EEP!), refinishing furniture, learning how to sew, bake a handful of goodies, and make dinner for my darling parents.

Since my blog has been mega boring, I'm gonna share a few pictures from this month that sums it all up!

I'm having major camp withdrawals.

Story of my life.

Fourth of July waffles made by Daddy!

Got to see one of my best friends!

Me and my best friend at VBS.

Motto for this month.

Comfort food after a consultation at the orthodontist.

Didn't get to see my munchkin for two weeks! I can't imagine what I'll do when school starts.

My girls at VBS.

Taught my nephew to take selfies.

Me and my gorgeous Momma ready for a wedding!

Gorgeous bride and fun wedding times.

Wedding with my best friend as the MOH!

Love you all!
Rebekah

Sunday, July 1, 2012

July is My Month

This month is going to be my month.

will serve the Lord with all of my heart.
will try to be selfless.
will study God's Word every day.

will love those who don't deserve it.
will finally forgive those who hurt me.


I will lose as much weight as possible.
I will be strict with my diet and exercise regimen.

will get my license.

I will work hard at every challenge that is placed before me.

I will not let negative thoughts creep in and destroy my confidence.

I will not complain in my circumstances.
I will rejoice in them.

July will be the best month of 2012 so far.

What will your month be?

Rebekah
<3



Monday, June 25, 2012

Guard Your Heart

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." ~Proverbs 4:23

I always took this verse to mean to guard your heart against the evil in the world. While that is a big part of it, I've been discovering lately that your heart needs guarding from so much more.

Emotions. Yearnings. Weaknesses.

I'm learning to protect my heart against these things the hard way.

Sometimes your feelings can run away from you {read: me.}. You pray hard about it. And God's answer is "Not yet." What's left to do? Nothing. You have to completely submit. If you had guarded your heart, you wouldn't be in turmoil.

Having a desire for something is one of the strongest holds that can grab you. If the timing isn't right for that desire, your emotions are going to be all out of whack.

If your heart is open to things that make you weak, guess what? You're going to stumble -- often.

Things that need to stay out of your heart aren't always "evil". But they can be destructive. Learn what you need to protect your heart against and start building a defense.


Rebekah
<3



Monday, June 11, 2012

Parker & Auntie Bee


This, my dear friends, is my precious nephew -- Parker.

Parker is my sister and brother-in-law's first child. He was born on January 9 of this year and let me tell you, he has been a huge blessing in my family's and my life. His due date was originally February 5. If you've been following with our story, my Grammy passed away on February 5, 2011. We were so overjoyed to have such a joyous occasion on what once was a bleak day. But God had greater plans and wanted us to have Parker an extra month. Thanks, God! It turns out that my Grandpa passed away on February 6 of this year about 1 in the morning. If Parker had come on his original date, we would've had to choose whether to hold Grandpa's hand and watch his life end or hold Parker and celebrate new life. God was gracious enough to take that choice away from us. He never left our side.

Karlie, Greg, and Parker on his "birth" day.

Since Parker was a month early, he was considered a preemie. He was just at 5 lbs -- which cracked everybody up. Big babies run on each side of the family -- as well as big men! All the boys in each family were at least 10 lbs and are now over 6 feet tall! So to have a tiny preemie was a shock to us all. At first, he had breathing issues as many preemies do, and my sister didn't get to hold or see him until almost 12 hours after giving birth. That was so hard on her. But she's strong and she's a fighter.

My sister, my mom and I always make this face. You can see us written all over that face!

I happen to have the best job on earth. I'm lucky enough to be Parker's nanny twice a week. Boy, do we have fun together. Sometimes it can be frustrating because he is a newborn and I am just 16. But we get through those days and end up having fun. Lately I've noticed that he lights up when he sees me. And that is one of the best feelings in the world -- seriously.


I'm beyond blessed to have him in my life. And I'm blessed to have the opportunity to invest in his life and pour love into him. I hope that I can teach him something. I hope he can learn from my mistakes when he's older. I hope I can tell him about Jesus and His love for Parker too. I hope he doesn't forget me when I go off to college.

But I do have a game plan for when that happens. Skype dates, letters, packages, gifts, and all sorts of stuff from Auntie Bee.



Oh, yeah. I hope he can call me Auntie Bee one day. {My mom wants to be called Gigi and my Dad loves the name Papa Bear} I love the name Auntie and I figured Bee would be much more simple than Rebekah or even Beka. But I know I will love whatever comes out of his mouth when he finally talks to me. I can't wait for that day either.

Bottom line, I love this kid. And I love to spoil him. And I love that I can spoil him. Being a teenage aunt is the best.


"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." ~James 1:17


Lots of love from Auntie Bee and Parker!
<3

Friday, June 1, 2012

Not Again, Robin!


Try and tell me this is not hilarious.
You failed.
It's hilarious.

My mom is notorious for checking us in on Facebook. She found this online and then posted it to her own Facebook to poke fun at herself. She's such a good sport.

Hope this gave you a giggle!
Happy Monday!
Rebekah
<3

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Photo a Day May ;; Weeks Three and Four

Weeks Three and Four, coming right up!
I decided to finish up the week seeing as how it was so close anyhow.

Day Seventeen ;; Snack
Obsessed.

Day Eighteen ;; Something You Made
Button Bracelet

Day Nineteen ;; A Favourite Place
In the Sunshine.

Day Twenty ;; Something You Can't Live Without
My loving bed.


Day Twenty-One ;; Where You Stand

Day Twenty-Two ;; Pink

Day Twenty-Three ;; Technology
My laptop named Violet.

Day Twenty-Four ;; Something New
New shirt from Tennessee!

Day Twenty-Five ;; Unusual

Day Twenty-Six ;; 12 o'clock

Day Twenty-Seven ;; Something Sweet
Virgin Margarita at Olive Garden &lt;3

Day Twenty-Eight ;; The Weather Today
Texas in May!

Day Twenty-Nine ;; A Number
My lucky number!

Day Thirty ;; Your Personality
If you know me well, you will understand.

Day Thirty-One ;; Something Beautiful
Can't wait to visit here one day.
Isle of Skye, Scotland

Rebekah
<3

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Destination Imagination ;; Global Finals

My DI team family this year.
Me, Aaron, Katelyn, John, Mary, Matt, Cassidy.

Destination Imagination -- or as I fondly call it, DI.

I've been participating in DI for 5 years now {not consecutively} and it's something very near and dear to my heart.

DI is one of the hardest things to explain in the world. So, I'm going to let the officials of DI say it for me.

"Destination ImagiNation (DI) is an educational program in which student teams solve open-ended Challenges and present their solutions at Tournaments. Teams are tested to think on their feet, work together and devise original solutions that satisfy the requirements of the Challenges. Participants gain more than just basic knowledge and skills—they learn to unleash their imaginations and take unique approaches to problem solving." ~ from Destination Imagination's website

Each year, I have participated in the improv acting challenge. This years challenge was called News To Me. You are told to prepare a skit skeleton, as well as bring 6 different current events to the tournament. 4 minutes before you take the stage, you are given a randomly selected current event that you brought plus one that is tournament provided. You must make the two stories connect and explain a cause and effect relationship between them. And 1 minute before you go on, you are given an OMG (One-Minute-Glitch) which can and will drastically change your entire skit. Example; all your characters are melting snowmen; all characters are gargoyles; your skit is set in the middle of the desert. You are given points for the connection of the two news stories, the integration of the stories into your skit, your integration of your OMG, human connective scenery, teamwork, and creativity. And you have 5 minutes to perform your skit. 5 minutes may sound like a lot, but when you have to cram all of the above information, it flies.

Then your score for your central challenge (News To Me for us) is averaged with your score for Instant Challenge -- Instant Challenges require teams to engage in quick critical thinking. At a Tournament, a team will receive an Instant Challenge and the materials with which to solve it. The participants must think on their feet by applying appropriate skills to produce a solution in a period of just five to eight minutes. While Team Challenges build long-term problem solving and teamwork skills, Instant Challenges provide an exciting, impromptu creative experience for competing teams. By practicing Instant Challenges during the course of the season, students can increase their improvisational skills and train their minds to work quickly!

This year, my team placed first at Regional Competition, advancing us to State-wide Competition. At State competition, we placed 5th -- one place away from heading to Global Finals. We were crushed, angry, and confused. We had no clue what had gone wrong. The next morning, we get the best email of our lives. The 4th place team had dropped out.

We were headed to Global Finals.

Now, a lot of people don't realize how big of a deal Globals are. It's one of the biggest honors and accomplishments in your high school career. You get to participate in the tournament with teams from all over the United States, Canada, and 13 other countries. To have the opportunity to go is mind-blowing.

Super excited!
Katelyn and I
Typical laughter. We couldn't take a serious photo to save our lives.

We left early Tuesday morning and arrived in Knoxville, Tennesse late afternoon. The whole week was filled with laughter, memories, lots of walking, pin-trading, creativity, prank wars, ultimate frisbee, pizza, birthdays, big bows, and friends. After doing fantastically in both IC and Central Challenge, Closing Ceremonies were Saturday night. We came in 5th in the WORLD. Honestly, we were all hoping for a medal, but the fact that we made it that far in a tournament we shouldn't have even been in is a phenomenal feat. I'm so incredibly proud of us!

Opening ceremonies -- leis, flamingos, bows, oh my!

We ran into Kacie B from The Bachelor on University of Tennessee Campus! She was so sweet.
Birthday boys with their new toys!
My mommies for the week!

DI has helped me learn so much. It's taught me to think quickly on my feet, how to present myself in front of an audience, and how to work well with others. Finding DI was finding my niche. A place where I truly belonged. I love my teammates with all of my heart and I'm so blessed to have spent the 6 months with them that I did! Love you guys.

Rebekah
<3



The smolder. I'm surprised the picture actually turned out -- I was laughing far too hard.

Love my Momma <3


Closing Ceremonies!